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There’s Got To Be a Morning After

Posted by on Dec 18, 2011 in Blindsided, Featured, Unabashed | 2 comments

There’s Got To Be a Morning After

For the past few weeks, I’ve started to feel different, to feel a bit better. It was sort of like coming out of a low-grade infection. This ‘infection’ lasted a long time and made me feel logy, sad and hopeless but I couldn’t for the life of me, figure out how to get rid of it. Then, like a festering boil slowly releasing its glut of pain and confusion, I began to feel better, as if the top of the pain mountain had been reached. I began to feel more positive and powerful. Also, from what I’ve gathered, my ex has moved in with her...

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Tears

Posted by on Dec 11, 2011 in Blindsided, Featured, Understand | 0 comments

Tears

I’m doing another switch-up this week. I was flitting around on YouTube, Google and iTunes and I came across this song. It has no lyrics but the images plus the instrumental arrangement just seemed a proper theme for how I was feeling. I started to cry. I call music like this “trigger music” because suddenly it unlocks parts of my soul and I react however it strikes me. Therapeutic tears. I thought to myself, my gawd, so many beautiful women in this piece and so many tears! I just identified with the music and the images immediately....

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Talking to the Spirit Guide

Posted by on Dec 3, 2011 in Blindsided, Featured, Understand | 0 comments

Talking to the Spirit Guide

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is...

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The Greatest Love of All

Posted by on Nov 27, 2011 in Blindsided, Featured | 1 comment

The Greatest Love of All

We grasp at straws, and search for our understanding of mistakes. Sometimes we suddenly find that we’ve taken on too much of the blame, too many of the mistakes, that we’ve blamed ourselves for everything that went wrong in our past relationships. It’s called unearned guilt and we learn to do that as children because it couldn’t be our parent’s fault, it has to be completely ours. After all, they are our parents and they can’t be wrong. Unfortunately, we drag all our protective devices and baggage into adulthood and can’t seem to...

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I’m Coming Out!

Posted by on Nov 18, 2011 in Blindsided, Featured, Unabashed | 0 comments

I’m Coming Out!

It’s funny how I “came out”. Toronto is my hometown. I was born here and I know it like the back of my hand. I spent two years living in Montreal. That’s when I discovered I might be “gay”. I couldn’t say the “L” word, couldn’t utter it for a long time. I later found myself in Vancouver. I had married this really sweet man. We lived in West Van and we both worked in downtown Vancouver. I got a job with an office supply company as their printer. I remember becoming more and more depressed. I’d had to have my beloved cat...

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One Day I’ll Fly Away…

Posted by on Nov 8, 2011 in Blindsided, Featured, Understand | 2 comments

One Day I’ll Fly Away…

I am so happy that people are responding to Blindsided! It means a great deal to me to know that my message is understood. I’m not a lone voice crying in the wilderness. I was surprised that this blog speaks to gay and straight men as well. I suppose, “dyke games” are not solely played by Lesbians. If any of you should feel so inclined, please write and tell me your story. I suspect there is an important facet of this equation that we’ll never hear from. I’m referring to the “dumpers” out there. But then why would they? Perhaps...

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It’s Not Going To Stop

Posted by on Nov 1, 2011 in Blindsided, Featured, Understand | 0 comments

It’s Not Going To Stop

Wise Up is a song by Aimee Mann and I’ve listen to it and read the lyrics many, many times. I was having a bit of writer’s block on what I wanted this session to be about. I knew that her song was the central theme but I couldn’t quite get a grasp on what I wanted to say. My take on the song is that we all have things in our lives that have caused us pain. I think she’s rolled pain and addiction all into one song. Addictions can be caused by many kinds of painful and shocking quantum shifts in our lives. They are a way to...

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Insensitive

Posted by on Oct 18, 2011 in Blindsided, Featured, Understand | 4 comments

Insensitive

I think this is one of those topics that needs to be aired because I know that quite a few of us, Lesbian or not, have suffered through this. The less-than-kind “kiss off”, or “kicked to the curb”. These are just a few examples of how some insensitive partners can end and shatter relationships. With the advent of the Internet that sends emails, tweets, texts, etc. someone can break-up with someone else just by typing in a short message and pressing “send’. Basically, “I no longer care about you, I’m moving on.” You can even...

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I Will Fix You

Posted by on Oct 12, 2011 in Blindsided, Featured | 5 comments

I Will Fix You

I like the music and most of the lyrics by the band, Coldplay, but I have to say that, referring to the title, you can’t fix anyone else but yourself. I remember the late period of our relationship; it was as if I was tip toeing on eggshells but seeing it from today’s vantage point, I think I was terrified I would lose her and that I’d grow old alone, and it literally became a self-fulfilling prophecy. Well I am alone now but the darned eggshells have disappeared! I’ve found that being alone isn’t all that bad. It’s just a...

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The Greatest Thing You’ll Ever Learn…

Posted by on Oct 6, 2011 in Blindsided, Featured | 1 comment

The Greatest Thing You’ll Ever Learn…

I find that music can do many things to me, emotionally, physically and mentally. It can make me smile, laugh, frown and occasionally, cry. There are times when a song will come on and it’s as if my insides have been suddenly painfully squeezed. Or, I’ll be going along and minding my own business, and something will trigger the same feeling. I figure it should be over by now but there are still residual feelings, like a piece of me is somehow missing. “The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love and be loved in...

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