Blindsided
Did I Get Screwed?
There are perhaps some financial matters that a couple, newly in love and thinking of sharing their lives together don’t think about but it is necessary to protect both of your interests and to do it properly from the start. Number one to perhaps consider is that if you live together (cohabitate) for a period of just one year, you are considered to be in a common-law partnership/relationship. Okay so what does that mean? It means that you have just slightly less rights to property and or money splitting as a couple married for the same...
read moreMy Library of Self Love
Some of my “toys” have had a pretty good workout and the Androgel is still working but without someone whose caresses inflame me, whose kisses knock my socks off and whose “come hither” glances make me do just that, it’s just a place holder. In time I guess, in time. I’ve been doing some reading and I’ll share the titles with you. One is “The Lesbian Kama Sutra” by Kat Harding. It is tenderly illustrated with ‘how to’ positions and even uncovers art about the subject from over the centuries. This is one of those books...
read moreFrom ‘Pause to Passion
I seem to be on a roll here. I think I’ll stick to the subject of “Libido” for a bit longer. I have received some good feed back from the blogs on this subject and it seems that the Universe is opening up many different subjects and modalities I probably would have ignored otherwise. But because the subject is important to me and to quite a few of you, I just become aware of them. It’s like the old adage: when the student is ready, the teacher will appear. There are some things that I’ve picked up that are very important to be aware...
read moreI’m Keeping My Libido!
I’ve been hearing from a few friends who have read my last blog entry, Where Did My Libido Go?. Most of them phone me because they may feel embarrassed to discuss it on the blog and they have no idea where to go or what to do to be given the courtesy, attention and thought that should be every mature woman’s right. Last week, I spoke of my epic journey trudging through gynecologists and clinics and ordinary doctors’ offices, asking the question, “Where’s the freakin’ SEX?” Perhaps my request wasn’t that strident, but as I got...
read moreWhere Did My Libido Go?
Where did my libido go? I’m sure I had it when I came in! This is just an observation and solutions from my own experiences in healing and “getting back on the horse”. I had slowly healed and patched my mental, and emotional house and everything seemed in order to start dating and seeing who was out there for me, but something seemed not quite right or missing entirely. As a result, I was having a difficult time seeing individual people for the crowds. I did a mental scan up and down my inside and my outside. The only thing that I could...
read moreThe Power of One
I’m just not feeling the love these days. I had written a Blindsided last week and decided to sleep on it as I do with all my postings. I woke up the next day, read it, and thought to myself, “What the fuck are you doing? This is so much bullshit! I have written this drivel and its a step to nowhere for jeezly fartin’ sake! Anyway things are a tad brighter this week. I’m beginning to understand that I can have good days and a few bad ones here and there. It’s actually the opposite of what it was: bad days sprinkled with the odd good...
read moreDown To Earth
It’s become more obvious to me as time has gone by that the whole episode in my past is fading like a bad dream. It feels as if it wasn’t my life or it wasn’t real. I realize that if there had been physical abuse, I would have been gone after the first smack. But emotional abuse is so subtle and pervasive, that I didn’t know I was trapped until the end. That kind of fool’s folly can leave you blaming yourself and it’s been slowly dawning on me that the abuse was only there until she found a new partner to replace me with, even...
read moreLove Doesn’t Hurt
This will be a pretty mixed bag this week. It will be all about love, healing, and protecting your centre of power. First, I’ve learned to keep away from people and groups who exude a negative force. I’ve probably said this before but it’s worth repeating. That negative force can really damage your newly formed and very tender sense of power, security, and self-love. With this new feeling of self-love, I’ve discovered a new sense of what I like to call ‘sexual healing’. It’s very pleasurable and I came to the realization that I...
read moreCabin Fever
Please note: The following entry is intended for mature audiences only. Reader discretion is advised. All swear words in this entry have been changed to protect the faint of heart. The incidents below are just some of the things I’ve noticed about myself, caused I firmly believe, from living alone for an extended period of time. I never swear at humans, no matter how disgusting and rude they may be. But at home, alone, if I drop a utensil or a plate, I’ll say to the hapless object, “Oh F— You!” Or I might even say, “Oh just...
read moreCalling All Angels
I have this great feeling that 2012 will be wonderful. I’ve sloughed off the old cruddy, grungy, grimy cowl of perpetually spinning pity party and just know in my heart that this year is going to be a humdinger for me; a feeling I’ve sorely needed to feel for quite some time and that I now know I have a right to feel. It’s as if I’ve been given a sacred gift, and it’s just beyond my fingertips, but I know it’s there. I know that my Higher Power has heard me and I guess is tired of my whining and whispered to me, “OK Kiddo,...
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